Today I Am Forgiven:

Today I was reminded of this truth via a song called My God is Awesome.   Lately, life has been difficult.   For years I have battled anxiety.   It has been a part of me for at least 20 years.   It comes and goes in severity, but over the past few days, it has reared its ugly head again in my life.   Sometimes it's a gradual thing, and sometimes it just comes at me out of nowhere.   I've had times in my life where I have been housebound, but I was able to overcome those times as well and live a fairly normal life.   

Just yesterday, I found myself drowning in fear once again.   Out of nowhere I couldn't drive to where I needed to go because shear panic just came over me.   As I tried to drive, I just shook violently and had to turn around and go home and, in my humiliation, I had to make up an excuse of why I couldn't come to the meeting I was supposed to be at.   This morning, I tried again to drive, and the same thing happened.  To say that I'm freaked out and confused, is an understatement.   

So not knowing what exactly to do, I just started to worship and listen to music via YouTube.   As I listened, I was reminded that even in times of absolute terror, uncertainty, embarrassment, and especially humiliation, today, I AM FORGIVEN!   That statement brings hope and a sense of security to my life right now.   I don't know how long this battle will rage, but I do know that Jesus loves me, and He forgives me!  He's my best friend.   He's in my boat, and actually, He's sitting right beside me!   He knows my name, and He knows my hurts, and yet He forgives me and loves me anyway!   

Whatever you are facing today, no matter how scary or humiliating or debilitating it is, please know that if you are a Christian, today, you ARE forgiven!   I pray that this short blog gives you some encouragement to continue to move forward in life, just as much as that phrase brought hope to my mind and helped to ease the fear today.